1 00:00:14,680 --> 00:00:17,000 I thought your story was beautiful. 2 00:00:21,360 --> 00:00:26,160 Like I'm hearing your most private, most intimate thoughts. 3 00:00:27,800 --> 00:00:29,920 This wonderful hidden life you have access to. 4 00:00:33,000 --> 00:00:34,520 I'm completely jealous. 5 00:00:37,960 --> 00:00:39,160 Thanks. 6 00:00:40,920 --> 00:00:42,120 For reading it. 7 00:00:46,200 --> 00:00:48,200 What will you do with it? 8 00:00:48,280 --> 00:00:49,680 Don't know. 9 00:00:51,800 --> 00:00:55,520 You should submit it to the magazine. 10 00:00:56,800 --> 00:00:58,720 -They liked the last one. -I don't know. 11 00:01:00,480 --> 00:01:02,400 Don't know if it's good enough. 12 00:01:03,360 --> 00:01:04,800 Ah, you're just fishing now. 13 00:01:05,760 --> 00:01:06,800 It's brilliant. 14 00:01:23,560 --> 00:01:27,120 ♪ Happy birthday to you ♪ 15 00:01:27,200 --> 00:01:30,360 ♪ Happy birthday to you ♪ 16 00:01:30,440 --> 00:01:34,680 ♪ Happy birthday dear Marianne ♪ 17 00:01:34,760 --> 00:01:37,800 ♪ Happy birthday to you ♪ 18 00:01:43,280 --> 00:01:44,520 Right, make a wish. 19 00:01:47,480 --> 00:01:50,240 This looks so yummy. I can't believe you made this. 20 00:01:50,320 --> 00:01:51,960 It's a perfect essay distraction. 21 00:01:53,360 --> 00:01:55,400 It's very sweet. Totally unnecessary. 22 00:01:55,480 --> 00:01:57,000 Shut your face. You have to have a cake. 23 00:01:57,080 --> 00:01:58,640 Did you get good presents, Marianne? 24 00:01:58,720 --> 00:02:00,080 Lovely presents. Thank you, Niall. 25 00:02:00,160 --> 00:02:02,080 And what did you get her, Connell? 26 00:02:02,160 --> 00:02:04,240 Uh, a book. 27 00:02:04,320 --> 00:02:05,960 Some Frank O'Hara poems. 28 00:02:07,840 --> 00:02:09,360 Anyway... 29 00:02:09,440 --> 00:02:12,080 I love it. 30 00:02:12,160 --> 00:02:14,200 And what about your family? They get you anything nice? 31 00:02:14,280 --> 00:02:16,240 A sports car or a pony? 32 00:02:16,320 --> 00:02:17,720 What are you implying? 33 00:02:17,800 --> 00:02:19,440 Well, I'm just going off my own birthday list. 34 00:02:19,520 --> 00:02:21,800 Mm, they don't really go in for birthdays. 35 00:02:21,880 --> 00:02:24,160 Oh, fair enough. 36 00:02:24,240 --> 00:02:26,800 Mm, this cake's fuckin' delicious. 37 00:02:41,760 --> 00:02:43,080 Birthday message? 38 00:02:44,480 --> 00:02:45,600 Yeah. 39 00:02:46,480 --> 00:02:47,480 My mother. 40 00:02:56,040 --> 00:02:57,560 Not exactly "happy birthday." 41 00:02:58,640 --> 00:02:59,920 What does it say? 42 00:03:01,720 --> 00:03:05,280 "Send me back the keys to the Dublin flat as soon as possible." 43 00:03:05,360 --> 00:03:06,360 So... 44 00:03:20,480 --> 00:03:21,480 I'm sorry. 45 00:03:22,840 --> 00:03:24,040 It's okay. 46 00:03:24,960 --> 00:03:26,040 I'm okay. 47 00:03:49,840 --> 00:03:54,480 ♪ Keep climbing into my head without knocking ♪ 48 00:03:56,320 --> 00:04:00,800 ♪ And you fix yourself there like a map pin ♪ 49 00:04:02,240 --> 00:04:07,080 ♪ Darling, darling, that dam's gonna give ♪ 50 00:04:10,880 --> 00:04:12,240 ♪ It's inevitable... ♪ 51 00:04:12,320 --> 00:04:13,560 Did you like that? 52 00:04:15,680 --> 00:04:16,680 Yeah. 53 00:04:18,040 --> 00:04:19,200 Very much. 54 00:04:21,080 --> 00:04:23,280 Good. 55 00:04:23,360 --> 00:04:26,200 ♪ And a mouth that slurs ♪ 56 00:04:26,280 --> 00:04:29,520 ♪ All the shit that it stirs ♪ 57 00:04:29,600 --> 00:04:34,400 ♪ Let that dogwood blossom ♪ 58 00:04:37,040 --> 00:04:41,800 ♪ Darling, darling, that dam's gonna give ♪ 59 00:04:45,520 --> 00:04:51,280 ♪ It's inevitable, the way that you live ♪ 60 00:04:55,320 --> 00:04:57,920 ♪ Bottles in brown paper ♪ 61 00:04:58,000 --> 00:05:00,600 ♪ And a mouth that slurs ♪ 62 00:05:00,680 --> 00:05:03,920 ♪ All the shit that it stirs ♪ 63 00:05:04,000 --> 00:05:06,800 ♪ Let that dogwood blossom ♪ 64 00:05:06,880 --> 00:05:09,640 ...could be described as bureaucratic inertia. 65 00:05:09,720 --> 00:05:11,520 Who? Connell? 66 00:05:11,600 --> 00:05:13,320 Yeah, all right, well, you're getting better. 67 00:05:18,240 --> 00:05:20,040 What do you fancy doing tonight? 68 00:05:20,120 --> 00:05:22,160 -Watch a film. -Sounds good. 69 00:05:22,240 --> 00:05:25,280 Oh, I might go for a swim. Another one. 70 00:05:25,360 --> 00:05:27,640 But I, I could pick up some food and come to you after. 71 00:05:27,720 --> 00:05:28,960 Great. 72 00:05:30,400 --> 00:05:33,280 Did we get married and become 50-years-old without noticing? 73 00:05:33,360 --> 00:05:34,400 Maybe. 74 00:05:35,280 --> 00:05:37,720 I actually love it. 75 00:05:37,800 --> 00:05:40,920 Do you think our first-year selves would hate what we've become? 76 00:05:41,000 --> 00:05:42,280 I should have known, to be fair. 77 00:05:42,360 --> 00:05:46,040 I think first-year me would have been amazed. 78 00:05:46,120 --> 00:05:48,480 "Look at her, she's actually content." 79 00:05:49,200 --> 00:05:50,200 Wow. 80 00:05:57,640 --> 00:06:00,040 -You all right? -Mm-hmm, yeah. 81 00:06:00,120 --> 00:06:02,720 -I just got this email. -From who? 82 00:06:07,800 --> 00:06:09,400 Connell, from who? 83 00:06:09,480 --> 00:06:11,040 It's, uh... 84 00:06:12,360 --> 00:06:14,360 it's, it's from this university in New York. 85 00:06:15,760 --> 00:06:17,040 They're offering me a place in their 86 00:06:17,120 --> 00:06:18,840 MFA creative writing program. 87 00:06:19,840 --> 00:06:21,040 Oh. 88 00:06:22,640 --> 00:06:24,440 I didn't even know you'd applied. 89 00:06:26,160 --> 00:06:29,680 I mean, congratulations. I'm, I'm not surprised 90 00:06:29,760 --> 00:06:31,120 they've offered you a place. 91 00:06:31,200 --> 00:06:34,240 I'm just a bit surprised you didn't mention it. 92 00:06:34,320 --> 00:06:37,160 Well, it was such a long shot. 93 00:06:39,720 --> 00:06:42,080 I, um, I-I was embarrassed. 94 00:06:43,920 --> 00:06:46,200 To be honest, I, uh... 95 00:06:46,280 --> 00:06:50,200 I still look up to you a lot, and I, uh... 96 00:06:50,280 --> 00:06:52,880 I wouldn't want you to see me, I don't know what, deluded, or... 97 00:06:52,960 --> 00:06:54,600 -Connell. -And I, 98 00:06:54,680 --> 00:06:58,280 I don't even know why I applied. It wasn't even my idea. 99 00:06:58,360 --> 00:07:00,640 -Whose idea was it? -Uh, one-- one of my tutors. 100 00:07:04,280 --> 00:07:06,400 It's really brilliant, Connell. 101 00:07:06,480 --> 00:07:08,360 You can see me in New York, can you? 102 00:07:09,960 --> 00:07:12,160 Yeah, actually. 103 00:07:13,320 --> 00:07:15,240 -I can. -I can't even... 104 00:07:16,160 --> 00:07:19,280 It's making me feel... 105 00:07:22,800 --> 00:07:25,640 Now is not the time for me to go halfway across the world 106 00:07:25,720 --> 00:07:28,040 and live in a city where I don't know anyone. 107 00:07:29,920 --> 00:07:31,520 Like... 108 00:07:31,600 --> 00:07:33,280 I could barely walk down the street in Dublin 109 00:07:33,360 --> 00:07:35,680 a couple of months ago without having a panic attack. 110 00:07:35,760 --> 00:07:37,120 How's that gonna work in New York? 111 00:07:41,520 --> 00:07:43,120 Put it away for a bit. 112 00:07:44,600 --> 00:07:48,440 It, it's brilliant they offered you a place. 113 00:07:48,520 --> 00:07:50,280 Don't think about what to do with it for now. 114 00:07:54,880 --> 00:07:56,040 I'm not going. 115 00:07:58,240 --> 00:07:59,240 Okay. 116 00:08:15,000 --> 00:08:18,600 And of course, we have to thank Connell. 117 00:08:21,360 --> 00:08:24,400 For stepping up and turning out to be 118 00:08:24,480 --> 00:08:29,680 the most naturally fucking gifted editor of all times. 119 00:08:32,920 --> 00:08:37,720 Leading me to announce that our latest brilliant issue 120 00:08:37,800 --> 00:08:41,160 launches tomorrow, and we could not be prouder. 121 00:08:43,280 --> 00:08:45,360 And I made punch, and it's fucking delicious. 122 00:08:45,440 --> 00:08:48,680 - And it's fucking lethal. - Drink up! 123 00:09:03,560 --> 00:09:04,560 Marianne. 124 00:09:06,160 --> 00:09:08,520 -Yeah? -Can I ask you something? 125 00:09:08,600 --> 00:09:09,760 Mm-hmm. 126 00:09:12,720 --> 00:09:13,720 Christmas. 127 00:09:15,680 --> 00:09:17,080 What about it? 128 00:09:19,240 --> 00:09:20,680 Would you like to come to ours? 129 00:09:23,200 --> 00:09:25,000 I don't know, Connell. 130 00:09:26,360 --> 00:09:29,320 -That's kind. -Lorraine would love to have you. 131 00:09:31,840 --> 00:09:33,320 You don't know that. 132 00:09:38,240 --> 00:09:40,680 -What? -I think I do know that. 133 00:09:40,760 --> 00:09:42,080 It's her idea. 134 00:09:43,400 --> 00:09:45,520 -That's kind of her. -Mm-hmm. 135 00:09:51,560 --> 00:09:52,720 So? 136 00:09:54,720 --> 00:09:56,160 So... 137 00:10:00,880 --> 00:10:05,160 ♪ You're all I want ♪ 138 00:10:08,000 --> 00:10:10,000 -Stop. -Oh, Connell. 139 00:10:10,080 --> 00:10:12,000 -Yeah? -It's not funny. 140 00:10:12,080 --> 00:10:14,920 ♪ All I want ♪ 141 00:10:15,000 --> 00:10:19,800 ♪ My whole life through ♪ 142 00:10:22,840 --> 00:10:28,520 ♪ Each day is just ♪ 143 00:10:28,600 --> 00:10:31,600 ♪ Like Christmas ♪ 144 00:10:34,120 --> 00:10:38,520 ♪ Anytime that I'm ♪ 145 00:10:39,360 --> 00:10:41,600 ♪ With you ♪ 146 00:10:41,680 --> 00:10:44,120 There they are. Aw, look at the two of you. 147 00:10:44,200 --> 00:10:46,680 A little Christmas miracle. 148 00:10:46,760 --> 00:10:49,200 Been cooking for weeks. Get in here. 149 00:10:49,280 --> 00:10:50,800 - Hi. - Hello, sweetheart. 150 00:10:51,240 --> 00:10:52,320 Oh. 151 00:10:55,120 --> 00:10:57,040 Thanks for having me. 152 00:11:01,080 --> 00:11:03,640 - Where should I put these, where? - I'll take them off ya. 153 00:11:07,680 --> 00:11:09,520 Editor. Well, that's impressive. 154 00:11:09,600 --> 00:11:11,640 No, well, I'm just really doing it as a favor. 155 00:11:11,720 --> 00:11:13,880 I'm sure people edit newspapers as a favor. 156 00:11:13,960 --> 00:11:15,240 He's doing brilliantly. 157 00:11:15,320 --> 00:11:18,000 It's a literary magazine. It's absolutely not a newspaper. 158 00:11:24,040 --> 00:11:25,920 Am I, am I involved in politics? 159 00:11:27,360 --> 00:11:28,840 What? 160 00:11:28,920 --> 00:11:30,240 Why is that funny? 161 00:11:30,320 --> 00:11:31,480 Am I Dobby? 162 00:11:33,680 --> 00:11:35,560 - Do I like me? - Oh, no. 163 00:11:35,640 --> 00:11:36,680 No... 164 00:11:41,200 --> 00:11:42,520 You all right? 165 00:11:43,120 --> 00:11:44,360 Yeah. 166 00:11:46,160 --> 00:11:48,520 -Is it too much? -No. 167 00:11:50,000 --> 00:11:51,160 It's so nice. 168 00:11:52,600 --> 00:11:54,000 Proper Christmas. 169 00:11:55,440 --> 00:11:56,840 It's lovely. 170 00:12:02,640 --> 00:12:04,120 Well, you have to do something. 171 00:12:04,200 --> 00:12:06,200 What are your school friends up to? 172 00:12:06,280 --> 00:12:08,680 Brennan's, like every year. 173 00:12:08,760 --> 00:12:11,640 I'm just not sure I could see a New Year's in a Brennan's. 174 00:12:22,280 --> 00:12:24,000 Hello, Denise. Happy New Year. 175 00:13:06,680 --> 00:13:08,800 What do people in town think of her? 176 00:13:21,640 --> 00:13:23,160 I suppose... 177 00:13:27,480 --> 00:13:30,600 I suppose she'd be considered a bit odd. 178 00:13:37,200 --> 00:13:38,200 Oh. 179 00:14:47,000 --> 00:14:48,360 Your cheeks are red. 180 00:14:49,280 --> 00:14:50,360 It's cold. 181 00:14:51,400 --> 00:14:53,240 Will you come tonight? 182 00:14:56,200 --> 00:14:57,200 You should. 183 00:14:59,320 --> 00:15:01,440 Far be it from me to disobey an order. 184 00:15:11,840 --> 00:15:13,160 All right, hey, hey, you! 185 00:15:13,240 --> 00:15:14,880 -How's it going, Gary? -Good to see you. 186 00:15:14,960 --> 00:15:17,080 Good to see you, too. Happy New Year to you. 187 00:15:20,120 --> 00:15:21,240 -Hey! -Hey! 188 00:15:21,320 --> 00:15:22,720 So nice to see you. 189 00:15:24,760 --> 00:15:26,560 - You look amazing. - So do you. 190 00:15:26,640 --> 00:15:28,200 You look gorgeous. 191 00:15:28,280 --> 00:15:30,240 Marianne, how are you getting on? 192 00:15:30,320 --> 00:15:31,760 Happy New Year, how are you? 193 00:15:31,840 --> 00:15:34,400 Good to see ya. Good, good. Get you a drink? 194 00:15:34,480 --> 00:15:37,080 - Yes, please. Would you like one? - No, no, no. 195 00:15:37,160 --> 00:15:39,120 See you in a second. One second. 196 00:15:40,160 --> 00:15:42,800 - Marianne Sheridan. - Hi. 197 00:16:17,040 --> 00:16:18,360 I love you. 198 00:16:21,680 --> 00:16:23,040 I love you, too. 199 00:17:17,920 --> 00:17:19,240 You all right? 200 00:17:20,760 --> 00:17:22,560 Yeah, I am. 201 00:17:24,560 --> 00:17:26,400 Just never felt like home. 202 00:17:28,320 --> 00:17:30,240 Didn't feel right to be here to be honest. 203 00:17:35,960 --> 00:17:37,160 What? 204 00:17:41,240 --> 00:17:43,280 I've been thinking about New York. 205 00:17:44,720 --> 00:17:45,880 The offer. 206 00:17:47,040 --> 00:17:48,280 What about it? 207 00:17:49,280 --> 00:17:50,960 I don't know, I just... 208 00:17:52,520 --> 00:17:55,920 I keep imagining you being there. 209 00:17:57,200 --> 00:17:58,200 Writing. 210 00:18:02,760 --> 00:18:04,120 Right. 211 00:18:07,080 --> 00:18:09,080 -You've been thinking about it. -Yeah. 212 00:18:09,680 --> 00:18:11,320 Yeah. A bit. 213 00:18:11,400 --> 00:18:13,840 Like, obviously, I-- I've thought about it a bit, 214 00:18:13,920 --> 00:18:15,480 but that doesn't mean that... 215 00:18:17,760 --> 00:18:18,920 Uh... 216 00:18:19,000 --> 00:18:21,080 it just feels too hard. 217 00:18:23,840 --> 00:18:27,240 Everything recently has been hard or it's been an effort 218 00:18:27,320 --> 00:18:28,920 and maybe this year 219 00:18:29,000 --> 00:18:30,640 just needs to be straightforward, you know? 220 00:18:30,720 --> 00:18:34,520 There's been a lot of stuff that's been difficult. 221 00:18:35,080 --> 00:18:37,440 And painful. 222 00:18:37,520 --> 00:18:40,040 And this would be difficult and amazing. 223 00:18:40,120 --> 00:18:42,120 -Potentially, yes. -It's New York. 224 00:18:43,680 --> 00:18:45,000 It's writing. 225 00:18:46,600 --> 00:18:50,320 It'd be fucking amazing, Connell. 226 00:18:52,520 --> 00:18:53,520 Yeah. 227 00:18:55,040 --> 00:18:56,160 Yeah, maybe. 228 00:18:58,080 --> 00:18:59,480 Would you come with me? 229 00:19:01,000 --> 00:19:03,000 We could be there together, and, 230 00:19:03,080 --> 00:19:06,320 and you could study or work, and... 231 00:19:11,760 --> 00:19:12,880 Why? 232 00:19:15,720 --> 00:19:17,400 I want to stay here. 233 00:19:20,920 --> 00:19:23,000 I want to live the life I'm living. 234 00:19:25,040 --> 00:19:28,000 It's quite a thing. 235 00:19:28,080 --> 00:19:30,120 And I'm getting better at it. 236 00:19:30,200 --> 00:19:31,200 Yeah. 237 00:19:47,080 --> 00:19:48,840 I'd miss you too much. 238 00:19:50,040 --> 00:19:51,560 I'd be sick. 239 00:19:53,280 --> 00:19:54,320 At first. 240 00:19:55,800 --> 00:19:57,280 But it would get better. 241 00:19:59,160 --> 00:20:01,200 Mm-hmm, yeah. 242 00:20:01,280 --> 00:20:04,640 Yeah, and it's only a year, and then I'll be back. 243 00:20:11,920 --> 00:20:13,400 Don't promise that. 244 00:20:16,520 --> 00:20:18,000 You don't know... 245 00:20:19,080 --> 00:20:20,920 where either of us will be. 246 00:20:22,400 --> 00:20:23,920 Or what will happen. 247 00:20:36,920 --> 00:20:39,560 I wouldn't be here if it wasn't for you. 248 00:20:40,720 --> 00:20:42,480 No. 249 00:20:42,920 --> 00:20:44,120 That's true. 250 00:20:45,600 --> 00:20:50,280 I mean, you'd be somewhere else entirely. 251 00:20:50,360 --> 00:20:52,720 You'd be a different person. 252 00:20:53,920 --> 00:20:55,640 And me, too. 253 00:21:00,520 --> 00:21:06,320 But we have done so much good for one another. 254 00:21:10,520 --> 00:21:12,400 You know I love you. 255 00:21:15,200 --> 00:21:18,320 And I'm never gonna feel the same way for anyone else. 256 00:21:20,840 --> 00:21:22,200 I know. 257 00:21:36,040 --> 00:21:37,520 I'll go. 258 00:21:40,920 --> 00:21:42,760 And I'll stay. 259 00:21:45,360 --> 00:21:46,600 And we'll be okay.